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There’s an artist, I like his songs, I fear listening them.
A French Rapper, his debuted pretty late but he’s a prodigy.
I stumbled upon his first songs, I liked them, I followed his developement, every album released, every song and clips produced.
He has a preference for melancholia, nostalgia, talking about his trauma or life difficulties, and how valuable life can be…
He’s the type of artists that you know, he will drop a song that you’ll put on repeat for months.
And I have a weird superstition about his songs, I fear I’ll have a bad luck, a disappointing or fearful event that day or night..
The last time I heard his songs, it touched me deep, It was wonderful…and few minutes later I hear my grand mother died…
I know, listening wouldn’t change anything…I logically know, but I fear I will be the one who causes a terrific and horrible thing…
The correlation I make are insignificant and delusional, maybe’ll I just have to shut my inner talks and superstitions and challenge them and live with it…
Yeah…some courage to be more true, more courageous…
I’ll try…I’ll listen to him…I pray for my grandmother and I wish us the best…
I don’t know if it’s a OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) or some unhealthy and ungrounded magic negative thinking but yeah…I have less than few years before, but I still have a good bunch of crap to let go…
It’s related to my inner confidence, sense of security and how I deal with uncertainty…Being willing to accept the consequences if there’s any…It’s a bet, an illusional bet but that can change my life…from normal to disastrous so mentally it’s making me tremble for something I guess if fake xD
If you have something similar, write about it in the comments xD share your experience and your advices :D
